Where have you been? OK... good point. Where have I been?
It's been a very busy weekend, and an even busier start to the week. I've really missed talking to you (and you have been very patient), and appreciate you not giving up on me. (see, I know you haven't given up because you're reading this right now... keep reading!) Over the past few very busy, very not posty days, I have come to realize that being able to talk to you here means quite a bit to me. And it's not just because I know how much you like reading my crazy ramblings (come on, you like it. admit it), but also because it helps me clear my head and get myself back into myself. Or out of myself. Whichever.
Anyway... last Saturday afternoon was kind of weird for me. Found myself in some kind of self-doubting mood, which I really don't have much anymore, so it freaked me out even more (vicious circle). So I put away all my toys and thoughts and vegged in front of the TV (rocketman, most excellent show).Before I knew it I was waking up to the buzzing of my phone. (I do like napping, but seldom get the chance). Seems that somebody had left their lights on in their car at the park-n-ride and needed a jump start.
I just happen to be an expert jump-starter (meaning I have cables), so I pulled my weirded-out self out of the chair and into the truck to go rescue the stranded motorist. (you can always call me if you're stranded... I'll be there).
I was driving down the road, still in that funky mood and started trying to pull myself out of it. I put some Choi on and started thinking happy thoughts and reaching out... and then I got a text. A smiley face. It's always fantastic to have someone just reach out when you need reaching out to. To get that little boost when you need it. And then today's post (which should have been Saturday's post) was set.
So I made it on to the stranded motorist and gave their poor dead battery a boost. Which is how I tie this story into this post (it happens in every post people).
You all should know by now that I've been in an awesome place lately... things are rolling my way, you're rolling with me, the tank is clean, the sun is shining... things are just good. But occasionally I start to feel a little bit achy, like something is missing, and I wanted to share with you what I do when I my poor dead battery needs a boost. (see the clever tie-in there...)
Not long ago I would not have been able to pull myself out of a funk that fast. In fact, not so long ago I was in a totally different place - my normal state was moderate with an occasional high. I've got to say that I'm currently on a constant high with an occasional higher (okay, and an occasional drop... it happens). So what has made the difference?
I started out a few weeks ago talking about distraction, and I think that has helped as much as anything. Also a different attitude (yes, I'm going there again). I decided that I was going to be happy, that I was going to be me. That was just the catalyst that started me speeding toward... This. And I can't wait to see how much farther it goes.
Anyhoo... back to the point. Here are the things that make Dee feel better, that jump-start me, that give me a boost.
- The Gym. OK, it doesn't have to be the gym. But I do so much better throughout the day if I have that workout first thing in the morning. I can't speak to the scientific reasons (but I know there are some), I'm just telling you that my daily morning ritual is there for a reason (and it's not just for the abs). And I do love my morning routine. Puts a smile on my face every time. (try yoga... it's fun. and stretchy)
- Good music. David is my current favorite (he's our boy), but I am also discovering new songs and new meaning in old songs all the time. I do get a little carried away...
- Creative Art. I have a couple of favorite sites that I peruse when I am looking for inspiration or to be reminded about beauty and love. There are people out there who are full of life and love and fun... Find them - or open up your heart and mind and let them find you (I did).
- Writing. Being able to talk to you is the best therapy. It's a way for me to vent, rant, laugh... just a way for me to put the real me in front of somebody. And to know that you appreciate the real me is a boost in itself (I take no complaints as a sign of approval.. you should know)
- Driving. I really like the race car. It's pretty, it's fast (I like fast), its comfortable and it fits me very well. And it's nice to just sit in and listen to some music sometimes...
So my message to you is this, I suppose. Thank you to those who let me soak up some inspiration from your web sites. Thank you music peeps for knowing how I feel and putting into words and music what I can't find words for. Thank you to those who are there reading this, for listening. Thank you for being a part of my life, and for giving me such a boost every day.